dear television loving tumblr users

can you guys recommend some addictive, can’t wait to see the next episode shows? everything that i try to watch is boring me =( don’t care how old/new the show is or what genre. halp?

HAPPY JANUARY 12TH EVERYONE

heytinafey:

at last the day has arrived thank you God.

Ok I am finally back from tour, I’m running solely on Cheetos and 2 hours of sleep, so if you don’t want to see Hanson’s beautiful faces and/or my heavy ramblings all over your dash for the rest of the day I suggest you evacuate immediately.

lovedye:

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY THEY ARE SHOWING HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART TWO IN MY AREA.

SHINE YOUR LIGHT ON THIS, MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!!! I GOT PLANS, BABY.

there’s no business like show business.

I think my days as a “professional extra”/background actor are done.

I just can’t do it anymore.

What no one knows about making movies and TV is that if you are anyone besides the director or an actor with a significant role, production is kind of a miserable experience.

I got really spoiled working on Boardwalk Empire. I was a featured background actor and worked for a month and a half on the pilot. The director? My favorite of all time, Mr. Martin Scorsese. I had one inaudible line (I say “Hi” to Steve Buscemi’s character). I had my hair and make-up done 20’s style every single day. I made friends everyone and they doted on me, fitting me for new pretty 20’s party dresses for our club scenes. Marty would come out of his little director’s tent all smiley and ready to go, excitedly talking about the day to come. Yeah, we had some 20+ hour days (when I say that production takes LONG, you have NO. FUCKING. CLUE.), but no one cared because we were working with MARTIN FUCKING SCORSESE. Even when we were on the amazing 20’s boardwalk at 4am, not being able to keep our eyes open, we were still on our game. Watching his craft was one of the greatest things to ever happen to me. I loved everyone on that set, and I miss doing it so so much.

Most experiences as an extra are not like that. Today was one of the worst. I got to work with and talk with Joseph Gordon-Levitt though, and that obviously was a highlight and I am obviously in love with him. But that doesn’t make up for the fact that I’m a performer and it kills me to be just like sitting around doing nothing ALL DAY waiting to be used in a scene where you won’t even see me anyway.

I want to be front and center. I want to be the star.

Today I met a woman who told me that when she was my age, she was doing a lot of off-broadway work and that she loved it so much, but she put herself through hell because she felt that she should be accomplishing more. This is what I am currently doing to myself, and I might as well be sticking a toothpick into my eye every day - I feel like that would A. Do less damage and B. Hurt less. She ended up quitting when she was 25, and is now filled with regret. She told me that I will make it and that I can absolutely not make the same mistakes she did. What a gift to be placed next to someone who gave me this advice. I’m taking it as a sign, because most extras are as miserable and desperate for a legitimate role as I am, and very unpleasant to be around.

All in all, I think I just have to fight harder for what I want, work harder, and believe in myself more. I used to be the most confident person in the world, and show business really beats that out of you. REALLY beats that out of you. I’m trying to get some of that back and just stand on my own two feet. I’m trying to enjoy the art of what I do more and not be so obsessed with SUCCESS, SUCCESS, SUCCESS. I need to focus on the journey and not the destination. All so much easier said than done.

I’m just really sad and I don’t want to be like this anymore. We’ll see what happens. For now, I can’t do background work. It is too grating on my already fucked up and confused psyche.

They want me to work on “The Miraculous Year” next week. Tempting, because it’s another HBO pilot (HBO seems to like me enough to constantly call me but not enough to give me an actual role) and it’s directed by the AWESOME Kathryn Bigelow, recent Oscar winner for the Hurt Locker and all around fierce bitch. It would be a good learning experience to just get to watch her work, but I just hate it.

If anyone actually read this whole thing and is now here, heed my warning (omg, I sound like Master Gracey from the Haunted Mansion! had to fit a WDW reference in somewhere) - DO NOT GO INTO SHOW BUSINESS!! I have to do this, because it’s in my blood and I know nothing else. But if anyone came to me saying they may want to try it out I would just say, TURN BACK NOW BEFORE IT’S TOO LATE!!!!!

Anyway bye.